I hate any word associated with death, hospitals and illness. Death all around is what I see lately. Technology kills the babies. Where are the summer days of youth, when we laid down on the green grass, staring at blue sky, licking ice cream cone? When I had hope that the world will become better, but is it really better?
History reads like a horror story. It’s all craziness. Then came cartoons. It taught kids to fight evil and become strong, but are we really fighting evil at this age in time? Are we just all hopeless narcissists who can’t handle the truth? We are small, very small.
When I was 5, inside the classroom, I had hope staring at the poster of a globe with people of all colors holding hands. We had dreams. Big dreams. Thought humanity was making progress. What happen to those days?
It’s lawless now or is it just that Mom made everything felt so safe that I didn’t think twice about how mad the world is.
Gloomy sky all the time. Lover of flesh always die.
Sometimes we play games to escape but forget to live our own lives. I tried to balance life, work and games. I realized, I have been in a better mood ever since the sun is out. Like a cat, I like to sit by the window. Also taking Vitamin D pills prescribed by my doctor helped. We just don’t get enough sunlight during the winter here.
Since I am in a good mood, I will share on how I de-stress because things have been intense at work to the point I asked boss to go home and rest. The last few days, I play Rule of Rose on and off. If only I had more energy and time to invest, I want to play fighting games and there is that game called Ikaruga that I would like to master but it requires a lot of mental energy which is something I don’t have (damn you work!). That’s okay. At work, I get a chance to play foosball with my attractive partner who resembles Chris Redfield (sorry ladies, he’s not straight).
We make a good team. People are always shocked when we win. I think mainly because people didn’t expect the nice girl can be aggressive. The trick is really to stay calm and focused. If you get too anxious you would lose. I thank the skills I’ve learned from Dark Souls and my partner who, unlike Chris Redfield, has a gentle voice which made it easy for me to follow his instruction. I do enjoy playing competitively and co-op from time to time.
Ah! Sorry for going off topic…here are ways I cope with stress, which are non-game related of course:
Go for a walk. I prefer to walk in a park, but this walk was on my way back from a doctor’s appointment. It was pleasant nonetheless because the sun was out. Haha
I watched Mushi-Shi every night to the point my brother jokingly accused me that Ginko is my husbandu. Don’t make fun of my singleness, brother. I never thought of him like that even though Ginko and I share similar fate. What attracted me to the anime is its eeriness, sorrowful and mystical tale. Isn’t real life bittersweet? I think Mushi-Shi captivated that feeling very well. I watched this anime more than once–both seasons. I like the soundtrack a lot. Typically, I don’t watch anime because I’m busy with games. HAHA
Dump yourself in a bathtub filled with epsom salt. This actually was recommended by my co-workers who are into health and wellness. This really does help. I sleep better and feel more relaxed. You should try it too.
Okay I can go on… but I will stop for now. I think I have already talked a lot about myself. I know that not talking at all is not good for mental health, especially if you are somewhat of a hermit like me. Letting things off of my chest makes me feel better. Hope you took something useful out of this and let me know if your have different ways to cope with stress. I’d love to learn about it.
Once I feel more physically stable, I still plan to write an analysis on Rule of Rose. Until next time, take care.
I realized not playing Dark Souls games for awhile, I miss it a lot. I am playing it again and realized that sometimes, music is unnecessary as much I love listening to music. I can hear my character’s footsteps echoing in the hallway. I like the sound of clashing and clinking of my weapons. I can hear the wind so I think I feel the wind touching my skin. I hear the waves splashing onto shore and that makes me feel so calm. I like to explore the game’s universe.
Currently, I am at Huntsman’s Copse, but got sidetracked because I am looking for materials to enhance my dagger. There are two bosses I’m about to face. I know what to expect because I played the game on PS3. Since I am too cheap for Playstation Plus ( I don’t play online), I have to make sure I am strong enough to handle the boss alone. Maybe summon NPC to distract the boss so I can blast my spell from afar. Get too close, I will use dager and quickly cut it up. But I don’t know if my plan would work.
One thing I love about the souls series is its educational gameplay style. If something doesn’t work out, then try something else. My only gripe about this edition is that there are too many enemies, and they make game more difficult on purpose. Strangely though, it feels like a new game because of the placement of items, characters and number of enemies. I cannot rely on my old guide for reference apparently.
P.S here is a fat cat for you, just chilling like me. Hehe