Blog Report Card II: Heading Towards 2019

With the year ending soon, I often reflect whether I want to keep going forth with this blog. Keeping a blog requires extra mental energy on my part. I wish I could just focus on creating content for this blog and quit my actual job, but then my boss would panic. Well, I can’t complain.  My bills get paid.

So, what’s coming up next year? Well, a gamer will always be a gamer. There is no other hobby I enjoy more than gaming. So, I continue to play games and continue to write about games in the following three categories:

  • Rambling about games
  • My gaming adventures
  • Reviews (even though they are more like essays or short summaries)

My objective for this blog is really simple–to break down that introvert walls. If you are like me, it’s hard to make friends, genuine friends, especially if you come across as shy.  I am happy if anyone enjoy reading my gaming adventures. I know that people rarely care about my experience with games but to me, it gives me so much happiness and joy to write them. So thank you to those who take the time to read.  It means a lot to me. Writing about games not only helps me articulate my thoughts, but it also helps me become a better writer (English is a hard language to master). I like to do things that are beneficial. Overall, I hope I can offer a different insight into gaming.   I know that my writing tends to be a bit more philosophical. I hope this doesn’t offend too many people. I’m not here to start war, but a dialogue.  Everyone has an opinion, including the quiet gal like myself.

Next year for this blog, I intend on covering the following games:

Shenmue II

The Silver Case

Final Fantasy VIII

Siren

Undertale

Root Letter

Pandora’s Tower

Drakengard (I have to complete Drakengard so I can discuss the game with him. He’s always trying to open his big mouth and spoil the story for me. I get so angry because I want to experience the story for myself!)

There are plenty of older games that I have yet to explore and play.  Playing older games is more worthwhile. I think older games have more heart and soul put into them, particularly single-player games. I don’t care much for multi-player games for many reasons: 1) I am actually extremely shy to play with other people which is why I don’t have many gaming friends. 2) Playing single-player games is relaxing to me. As I mentioned several times, I take my time and I am really slow and completing games. 3) I like to be immersed in a video game. If I am talking to people on the mic, I can’t hear the sound effects and music in the game.  Music is very important to me.

And lastly, yes write more poems. I like writing poems. Next blogging year, I will be more active. Now I go back to spending time with my new-found love. I am always thinking about Shenmue lately.

Until next time,  Happy early New Year!  Next year will be a great year! I am pumped!

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Update

I know my blog has been very quiet because I’ve been out of the country.  I am so glad for the long weekend. This year, I am spending Thanksgiving alone because I want to. It’s mainly because I’m suffering from jet lag and need time to properly rest.

I consider myself an honest person, so I’m going to be straight forward. I don’t know my readers really well, but if you are like, you are probably very sensitive to people, especially in big crowd. Sometimes it is just nice to shut the fuck up. Silence is beautiful.

 

 

Reflection Time: My Blog Report Card

When I am gloomy I like to clean.  I like to clean my place and I like to clean my blog. As I was organizing my blog posts, I noticed maybe I should proofread before I hit the “Publish” button. I am so embarrassed, hehe. I made several typos.   Oh what a pain! I have to go through all my posts and make it pretty so that I can appear to be somewhat professional, even though I am just writing for fun.  Although lately, I think I should be more serious about what I want to achieve from this blog. What I intended for this blog in the first place has shifted. I was writing about games, but now I want to focus on my poems and songs. I would like to become a full-time poet/lyricist actually.

Yes, these days, I play games seldomly.  I did get my copy of Shenmue. I enjoy it but didn’t get very far. I am at the part where I need to join the mafia to figure out who is the tattoo artist. So far, it’s a fun detective/drama type game. I feel like I am playing an Asian soap opera.

One  character that stood out to me the most is the old lady. She kept telling Ryo (the protagonist) baby Ryo to stop wasting time. Somehow I feel that she was speaking to me as well.  I kept pressing X so she got annoyed and told me I’m hitting on her. So funny! Yeah, I will continue on my investigation. Similarly, my friends are like the old lady in Shenmue.  I am being lectured to cultivate my creative side and stop wasting time.  So that’s what I have been doing other than cleaning my place.  Telling an artistic person to be organize is like asking her to do the impossible.  Never know when inspiration strike! Once I am gone I am gone! It does take me a whole day to clean because I get distracted easily.

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Anyway, this blog will be quiet for some time. No gaming related content, as I am planning for a vacation. From now on,  I think I will do this Blog Report Card because it helps me put things into perspective. I was so close to deleting the blog after all this work.  I confess, I was feeling a bit stiff, as if I can’t breathe.  I started asking myself what’s the point? I know that my opinions are not popular, but then I realize I am  going to stand up for it anyway! And I don’t give a damn if I am a commentless blog in Seattle  as one blogger pointed out. Blogging is for my personal enrichment. If I write to gratify people it will become a chore. I already have a full-time job. I don’t need more stress in my life.  Unless you pay me, then I will entertain you gladly.

As for my final grade for my blog—I will give it a C+. Need to have a clear focus or else I’m just wasting time writing when I could be relaxing. We all know that writing takes time. On a good note, I think I have been good at attempting to be consistent. That’s quite an accomplishment for me since I get bored easily. By now, I think my blog would have been deleted. Thank goodness, I read my old posts. I put a lot of time into it so I will stick around.