Blog Report Card II: Heading Towards 2019

With the year ending soon, I often reflect whether I want to keep going forth with this blog. Keeping a blog requires extra mental energy on my part. I wish I could just focus on creating content for this blog and quit my actual job, but then my boss would panic. Well, I can’t complain.  My bills get paid.

So, what’s coming up next year? Well, a gamer will always be a gamer. There is no other hobby I enjoy more than gaming. So, I continue to play games and continue to write about games in the following three categories:

  • Rambling about games
  • My gaming adventures
  • Reviews (even though they are more like essays or short summaries)

My objective for this blog is really simple–to break down that introvert walls. If you are like me, it’s hard to make friends, genuine friends, especially if you come across as shy.  I am happy if anyone enjoy reading my gaming adventures. I know that people rarely care about my experience with games but to me, it gives me so much happiness and joy to write them. So thank you to those who take the time to read.  It means a lot to me. Writing about games not only helps me articulate my thoughts, but it also helps me become a better writer (English is a hard language to master). I like to do things that are beneficial. Overall, I hope I can offer a different insight into gaming.   I know that my writing tends to be a bit more philosophical. I hope this doesn’t offend too many people. I’m not here to start war, but a dialogue.  Everyone has an opinion, including the quiet gal like myself.

Next year for this blog, I intend on covering the following games:

Shenmue II

The Silver Case

Final Fantasy VIII

Siren

Undertale

Root Letter

Pandora’s Tower

Drakengard (I have to complete Drakengard so I can discuss the game with him. He’s always trying to open his big mouth and spoil the story for me. I get so angry because I want to experience the story for myself!)

There are plenty of older games that I have yet to explore and play.  Playing older games is more worthwhile. I think older games have more heart and soul put into them, particularly single-player games. I don’t care much for multi-player games for many reasons: 1) I am actually extremely shy to play with other people which is why I don’t have many gaming friends. 2) Playing single-player games is relaxing to me. As I mentioned several times, I take my time and I am really slow and completing games. 3) I like to be immersed in a video game. If I am talking to people on the mic, I can’t hear the sound effects and music in the game.  Music is very important to me.

And lastly, yes write more poems. I like writing poems. Next blogging year, I will be more active. Now I go back to spending time with my new-found love. I am always thinking about Shenmue lately.

Until next time,  Happy early New Year!  Next year will be a great year! I am pumped!

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Mummy

Disclaimer: This poem is not a suicidal poem. A reader found the poem offensive.  He didn’t know that I was being sarcastic. People do read things differently. I was trying to emphasize the coldness of winter. I guess I fail as a poet. I hope his “God” will pardon his impoliteness.

I stood by the train.

Wind is blowing.

Engine is rumbling.

It’s cold, very cold.

Two scarves unfold.

Just wrap it around me

like a

a bandage

and turn me into a

mummy please.

Shenmue II: My Thoughts So Far

Video game is not all damaging. Playing excessively is bad, but that’s just about with everything else. The key to happiness in life is balance. Shenmue series teach valuable life lessons. That’s why it is so special.

If I were to go back in time and play Shenmue I and II as a kid, this would easily be my #1 video game. As I mentioned in this blog several times, I grew up watching martial arts films and fell in love with it. Combining video game and martial arts film, makes it the perfect game for me. Those are the two things that bring me joy. Ha! I guess the word nostalgia is not entirely bad. I used to associate it with bad feelings, so I avoid playing older games, but this game brought good memories of my childhood.

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I find that Ryo Hazuki so relatable, which makes the whole gaming experience enjoyable.  But it’s not just the character, never a moment do I find myself bored. Talking to NPCs is like talking to people in real life. They are all so different in shapes and sizes. But what really make this game so special is that it offers me that escape, which most video games these days fail. Everything feels genuine and safe.

Music is really important to me even more important to me than story. It sets the mood and the atmosphere of the game, and thus making the world immersive and memorable. I also especially love the women in this game too. They all remind me of my own mother–strong and beautiful. Whoever said that Asian women are submissive, they should think twice.

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“Softness doesn’t mean there is no force.” The average westerner doesn’t understand this concept. So far in my work-life, this is how I maintain peace. Most conflicts can be avoided if you have a clear mind. But this concept doesn’t always work, sometimes being too passive is not a good thing as I learned from playing Rule of RoseIf only we live in a perfect world, most ideas are inherently beautiful, but not always practical.

So that’s my thoughts so far about this game. I will leave you folks with this video clip. I appreciate the humor a lot. I think we are all guilty of this.

 

Oh the Woes of the Millennial!

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I hate any word associated with death, hospitals and illness.  Death all around is what I see lately. Technology kills the babies. Where are the summer days of youth, when we laid down on the green grass, staring at blue sky, licking ice cream cone? When I had hope that the world will become better, but is it really better?

History reads like a horror story. It’s all craziness.  Then came cartoons. It taught kids to fight evil and become strong, but are we really fighting evil at this age in time? Are we just all hopeless narcissists who can’t handle the truth? We are small, very small.

When I was 5, inside the classroom, I had hope staring at the poster of a globe with people of all colors holding hands. We had dreams. Big dreams.  Thought humanity was making progress. What happen to those days?

It’s lawless now or is it just that Mom made everything felt so safe that I didn’t think twice about how mad the world is.

Gloomy sky all the time. Lover of flesh always die.

No Matter Where You Go, There You Are

In the winter, I went shopping and tried on many coats, but I thought what’s the point? I already have a lot of coats.

In the spring, I went on a date by myself. Why not? I can treat myself out occasionally.

In the summer, I  went to a ball game. I almost fell asleep on the chair out of boredom. I don’t understand the rules.

Now it’s mid-fall, all I want to do is drink hot chocolate.

In the end, it doesn’t matter where you are, you can’t run from yourself.

Unless, you are literally in hell…I don’t think you have time to be depressed. Instead, you’d be in survival mode just like Rooney from NightCry.

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Come on, if a monster is chasing you, are you going to just stand still and wait for it to rip you up? Nah, I think I am going to slap it back to hell.  STAY DOWN GLOOMY FEELINGS!!

 

 

 

I Feel

Near Port Orchard

Underneath the grey sky

When things are quiet and subtle

My heart begins to move with the waves

I feel safe

I feel free, and

yet hidden.